I have to get this out

Where do I even start? It's been so long since my last post. I've been so busy with so many things that I just haven't had the time. But this is it. This has to be said. I can't take it anymore. First, let me bring you up to speed. I started this blog so…

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Day 18 Progress?

Baby steps. One foot in front of the other. One day at a time. That's how we've approached this whole thing so far. No it hasn't been easy. Each day comes with its own challenges. Earlier in the week Mike complained of his back pain until he went to the emergency room to get some…

Day 16 Need a Break

I know, I know...some of you count on this post every day and I haven't been able to update you. I'm sorry. I've just been so swamped that I haven't had the time to sit down and write like I would like to. This may turn out to be quite a long post because so…

Day 11 Magic Heals

It's no secret that as one goes through a difficult life change they need to surround themselves with people who can help make the experience less painful and help to maintain a positive outlook. Let's face it...shit does happen. You might not struggle with addiction, but I'm sure there have been trying times throughout your…

Day 9 Missing Brother

Good sleep has been difficult to come by during the last week. I think I'm getting around 4 to 5 hours a night if I had to average it out. No only do I have the stress of dealing with my brother on a daily basis, but I also have my own personal hardships. My…

Day 8 Patience Tested

I never said it would be easy. I've done this before and I went into this acutely aware that it would test my patience at nearly every turn. I consider myself a strong person and one who faces challenges head on like like a matador faces his bull. Confident, strong, even courageous. I've been told…

Day 7 Back to Square One

I find it interesting how people always say that they want to do whatever it takes to help, but when push comes to inevitable shove, there's no one to be found (insert cricket sounds here). Not that I'm surprised at the fact that no one wants to deal with a lying, story telling, addict who…

Day 6 Relapse

Let me start off by saying that nothing surprises me anymore. Especially when it comes to addicts...yes, even family members-ESPECIALLY family members. It seems to me that it's much easier to lie to someone who loves you because they want to believe you so badly. My brother Mike says that he wants to be 100%…

Day 4 Kratom

The worst part of recovery, we've talked about a lot so far. The tough decisions, detox, withdraws, and the fear that you're not going to get through it are a few of the reasons for giving up and going back to using. But just for a moment, let's talk about the good things about getting…